It's amazing how much even a slight acknowledgment of what you're going through bolsters your spirit. I've gotten notes, texts, emails and inquires from a lot of people, and each one makes me a little stronger. Just knowing someone is thinking of you and is on your side helps so much.
Every day our little girl is in our every thought. It's inescapable. It's also hard to remain positive and strong with every move. My parents, friends, and coworkers have been amazingly supportive. It makes a huge difference knowing we have positive thoughts on our side. I never really realized how strong unconditional love can be for the spirit.
Of course, some people are absent, and that's ok. I'm trying hard to make it ok anyway. It's been hard for me to let go of anger or resentment. Yesterday, it was hard for me to get over something and move past. I know I need to. I know wallowing in my own self-pity is not healthy for this little girl.
To help me move past, I'm going to start practicing some meditation. I'd love to be doing yoga as well, but I'm not sure I should. I'm so hesitant with every activity because I think if I keep my heart rate down, I will do better for my girl. The harder my heart works, the harder hers has to pump. I want to make sure to keep it steady as much as I can. This gets hard when I get riled up about stupid things. My blood pressure cranks and my heart rate goes up. Remaining calm is a new piece of the puzzle, and it's a hard one for me to master.
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